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Love Hotel Video Cycle

Once again, I decided to make videos for each song on my album so you can watch the whole thing on youtube.  This time, instead of an album playlist, I put together a compilation video complete with bonus scenes, mostly me messing up and swearing.


click here for the videos for Don't Stop

Without further ado... if you have 40 minutes to blow, and and are not at work, um, this is a little NSFW... otherwise keep scrolling down for the blow by blow and individual videos from the album Love Hotel.

Set You Up

This is my bedroom with the mattress pushing against the wall and about four copies of the Portland Mercury taped up with masking tape.  Melissa from SuperDuperFunGun is my love interest here, our first time doing a project together.  She brought along Bruce Knight as camera.  Joe Churchman, a local jewelry designer was called as a last minute fill-in actor.  I literally called him and said, "What are you doing right now?  And what are you wearing?"  He was in and out in about 30 minutes.  My daughter Simone was on camera for the scenes in which I am dancing in my underwear.

Lisa Lisa

A stranger invited me to a secret, invite-only Pete Krebs show being held in a room at the Hotel Modera.  I found out who kept this room... a local filmmaker who did frequent projects there, and asked him if he would lend it to me for a few hours.  I asked Paul Allen to make a cameo dressed as a businessman.  That was literally all he knew when he showed up.  Luckily, he was pretty game- the only time he showed fear was when I told him I was going to slam his head against the wall(see bonus scenes in the album compilation).  I don't like my cast to overthink what's going on- their reactions become less real.  I would rather tell people what wardrobe to bring and then just have them react in real time.  

The Bicycle Song

This simple video took surprisingly long to do.  I had to buy an external hard drive, clear out my computer, and spend a fair amount of time on Google figuring out how to do a few things.  I am a completely self-taught filmmaker.  If I don't know how to do something, google and youtube how-to videos teach me how to.  Um, that's also how I learned how to play guitar.

Solar Power

My daughter Simone on camera, we were filming during a house party/house show/filming of Please Remain Seated- basically running around someone else's set taking advantage of the ongoing house party.  We only filmed for about 15 minutes.  The Yellow House was a legendary vortex of creative people in the St. John's neighborhood.  We made many good friends there and the curator became my video boyfriend.  And yet, we could never quite bring ourselves to kiss on camera.  This house has appeared in almost as many videos as my apartment has.

All Those Times

I was thinking of the exposure of Japanese black and white films in the 1950's and 1960's- gritty, post-war human dramas.  This is a really interesting genre to me- watching Western aesthetics filtered through film, re-filtered through post-war Japan... coming from a visual tradition that more heavily references illustration and serial illustrations(manga, comics, etc.)... I could really talk about this for awhile, so I'll stop.  I also really like 60's/70's French movies especially Claude Chabrol.  

To Whom It May Concern

It's not a big secret who this song is about.  This was the first song to be written on this album.  I had a long-distance love who dumped me on Thanksgiving Day.  I wrote this song and showed it to him 2 days prior.  He is still precious to me in other ways.  He could take me out in the woods and show me things I didn't even know how to look for and he is the most bullshit-free person I have ever met.  I don't know any other way to say that.  I cried and cried at the time... but I'm glad he helped me to move on by dumping me and I value his friendship.

Anna Veronica

The theme of this was behind the scenes at a nude photo shoot- trying to show how silly and artifical the process of creating sexy photos is.  And I did it with a truly psychotic song.  Even though my sister was the only other person there, being naked with other people is WEIRD AND SCARY!  THEN HAVING TO EDIT NAKED FOOTAGE OF YOURSELF IS EVEN CRAZIER!  This video freaks out all my friends. 

At the Time I Looked Twelve

I tell creepy stories about Los Angeles.  And in this video, it's less about the stories I am telling, than the idea that if you become caught up in your trauma- reliving it and letting it influence your decisions, you are incorporating your attacker, so that you are your attacker and victim at once.  The bit where I tell Simone that I haven't been in Portlandia was spontaneous.

And the Beat

My hair is wet here because we did this super fast after finishing the Anna Veronica shoot and I had to shower off all the silver body paint.  Then it seemed to make sense to do my makeup to look like I had fallen asleep in my makeup after a show... Kind of exhausting doing Anna Veronica, and we had 15 minutes to get footage before getting the twins from the sitter.  And I could not explain how we had just spent the last few hours... I've never met the rappers featured on this track.  We did it completely through e-mail, but I would like to meet them and do shows together some time.  We had several long phone conversations before they recorded their bits, and they gave me exactly what I needed.  However, there was a bit of space at the end of the song, which is how I ended up rapping for THE FIRST TIME EVER.  Wow.  Scary.

Do You Still Want To?

A bisexual revenge fantasy, cameo by DJ Ceez as the dude at the bar.  The bar we had planned to film at wouldn't confirm, so I called Paul Allen of Barfly the afternoon before and he hooked us up with The Matador.  What a champ!  He did this even after I lured him to a hotel room the hogtied and spanked him.  Wait a second...

This is What Living in Portland is Like

The last one at Henri's house...


 Don't Stop

I decided to make a video for each song on "Don't Stop" so that you can hear/see the entire album on youtube.  We did it in just a few weeks, which was insane.  I fell out of trees, ended up in bed with a stranger, experimented with genetic engineering, and was eaten by tigers.  

Click the video below to start the playlist for the entire album or keep scrolling down for the cheat sheet for each video.


That's a lot of Ilima, so here's the rundown if you only have time for a song or two.  My children appear in these videos briefly.  The small green jacket wandering around in the background is my 4-year old son, and my daughter held the camera on Totally Typical.


A Terrible Dream- The downward spiral of a relationship.  This one was hard for family members to watch.  It starts out with me using eye shadow to cover a black eye.  Filmed at La Casa Amarilla in St. Johns, co-starring its young beardo curator.




This Happy Feeling- my personal favorite.  A day spent running out of the woods and falling out of trees with my sister.  I got scratches in places I won't mention when I fell on some sort of stinging plant.



The Comet- in collaboration with Jeremiah Scott of Endhaven Studios- this one has absolutely gorgeous production values.



Tell me that you want it- outtakes and live footage all mixed up.  NSFW




When You Close the Bedroom Door- standing offer- if you can tell me the name of the guy in this song, or what Portland band he is in, you get a free t-shirt.


Under My Skin- work cancelled, so we frolicked on the beach.  40 degrees and a nightgown.



Fantastic Venus- everything seems normal, until... 


Running Up That Hill- our Kate Bush cover gets the German film director treatment.  A blank wall, black and white, and me progressively losing my sh*t.



Totally Typical- I get attacked by a tiger.  The tiger, E-claw, was my Xmas present to the children.  I think she gets recognized more than I do nowadays.



Take on Me- Ilima experiments with genetic engineering.  It goes horribly wrong.


Come on Daddy- Ryan Alvarez kidnaps me for a snuff film.  What?!? OH, NO!

Finish Me Off- this is not an official Sexbots video, but it is the only extant video for this song.  There will be an official video before long.

And I Meant It- with remastered audio.   This has a lot of cameos from Portland famous types.

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